SUN @ Leo 28:
Many little birds chirping on the limb of a large tree.

Chattering, talking, making sound--does it mean anything? All talking at once, too many thoughts, other people's thoughts, other people's words--can't hear my own thoughts, my own guidance. On the limb, where everyone else is--do I belong somewhere else? Can't I fly higher than this?

I can fly higher than this, if I stop trying to listen to everyone else for guidance on who I am and where I am going; if I just take off and follow the wind. Maybe it's the eagle that's hanging around the sparrows--I can fly so much higher than this, if I can get into my own sky, follow my own sun.

MOON @ Aries 13:
A bomb which failed to explode is now safely hidden from discovery

Some explosive thing almost happened but didn't, and doesn't appear that it will go off. It's hidden and maybe no one will find it. But is there some latent chance it could go off?

Is it something that will just bother me knowing that it's there? Am I the one who hid it, am I afraid someone will find out this potential part of me or some old intention and will get me 'in trouble'. That sounds like a definition for 'guilt'. I feel that alot, like I'm 'wrong' somehow, and 'when is someone going to find me out'. I don't even really know what IT is, I'm just on the lookout for it all of the time. I'm on my guard, even with Johannah. Blaaaaagh, yuck! I'm done with it. I'm ready to move on. I'm ready to start living my life!

SUN @ Leo 25:
A large camel crossing a vast and forbidding desert.

A long journey, a great challenge, but the "large" camel is the one who is probably most equipt-- he has the largest store of water. There are no guarantees, but he has the best chances of all.

MOON @ Aquarius 25:
A butterfly with the right wing more perfectly formed.

The right wing is more "perfect", but that perfection is what highlights the "imperfection" of the mis-matching wings. In nature, the imperfection is perfect, it is what is truly in place and it is the true beauty (vs. the sterile, the test tube perfection).

TOGETHER
The camel is in the "perfect" situation, what is is made for doing--survival. The butterfly is meeting the challenge, the long journey of a life with one sign of perfection reflecting its imperfection--like the Chiron, the child of Jupiter, living in the base and mundane world knowing that he is part divine.

The 'Aquarius Moon' opposing the 'Leo Sun' on this full moon--bringing in the creative fire of my individuality (Leo); to find my place and contribution to the world (Aquarius). The trick is to not feel lost or self-pitying, experiencing my uniqueness, my light, while living it in the real world.

IN MY NATAL CHART
Feels like a tension within my life, bringing these together--the ideal with the real; the vision with the execution of it. Maybe this is the tension of the Quincunx b/t my Pisces Sun (adaptable for others) and the transiting Leo Sun (my individual light). 'Adjustment is needed to bring these two seeming unreconcilable energies into conversation.'
My chart also has a Quincunx between my Pisces Sun (who I am, how I shine) and my Libra Ascendant (how I express my self to the world). Adjustment needed in order to shine my true light to the world!

SUN @ Leo 17:
"Volunteer church choir makes social event of a rehearsal."

Dress rehearsal. Actually something 'real' is happening beyond what they are practicing for. Along the way, they are connecting and enjoying the process.

MOON @ Scorpio 17:
"A woman, filled with her own spirit, is the father of her own child."

A sort of immaculate conception but the "holy spirit" is herself, creating something completely new through her connection to her deep core.

TOGETHER
Are these few days at home a "rehearsal" for the life I want? Developing that inner experience of how I can feel, who I can be when I stop running away from 'myself'. I can witness and experience more of my true spirit--connect with my spirit, communicate with it, commune, intercourse--and be the 'father' and 'mother' of the next expression of 'me' in the world. I can be closer, truer, than I ever have been.

A "rehearsal" brings out the spirit; "intercourse" with spirit, gives birth tot he new/true me.

FIRST QUARTER MOON
...And how might I take new ACTION today?

[from an 8/1 journal entry]

SUN & MOON @ Leo 10:
Early morning dew salutes the sunlight.

A celebration of the new beginning, after a long dark night. The 'accumulation' (dew) is lit up, radiant and shining in the new Sun. Nature sings quietly. A piece of the Sun is carried in each one of us when we remember and salute the light.

(Quincunx?)PLUTO @ Sagittarius 29:
A fat boy mowing the lawn.

Slogging and effort. Sweaty work. Unaccustomed to this effort, it's difficult at first but if done regularly it's easier and neater, and the boy can take pride in good work. Did the fat boy resist--making it more difficult when he finally does it?

(Conjunct)MERCURY @ Leo 13:
An old sea captain rocking on the porch of his cottage.

TOGETHER
After the long hardship I created for myself and my family (i.e. my passiveness, not taking initiative, trying to disappear, etc.) now the king has come along with the morning sun. The 'son' (sun) is the 'father' now. "Now is the winter of our discontent, made spring by this glorious son/sun of York."
'Seeing daily life as a struggle' is the old way--it hasn't helped the "lawn", the "boy", or his family. But in the early morning, now, the lawn is mowed and fresh; the dew glistens in the new sun (son); and the old "sea captain" is reminded of the sun glistening on the waves in and earlier time, and he is happy to be here, and out of the sea.

MARS @ Virgo 23:
"A lion tamer rushes fearlessly into a circus arena."

Fearlessness. Taking action. Is he safe? No. Will he succeed? We don’t know, but his best chances are to be without fear. He’s plunging in without hesitation, showing the lion that he is in control. “Rushing”, in this case, is not careless since he is an expert and is fully prepared. This is all witnessed by a crowd of onlookers who intend to see a colorful show—rooting for him, but also excited about the possibility of violence.

URANUS @ Pisces 23:
A 'materializing medium' giving a seance.

A “materializing medium” can make things come from the immaterial to the material—being a “medium” this would be bringing spirits into the room to be seen and touched. Bringing the dead back to life temporarily; bringing the past back to life, back to our physical experience. The group is gathered to witness and experience this. Is it a flashy entertainment or a deep need for the family members to connect again?

TOGETHER
Sense of danger and excitement. Making a connection and showing our mastery. Is the “medium” masterfully entering a lion cage full of danger? Is the “lion tamer” fearlessly making a deep connection with an older wilder part of himself? Are we all witnessing this with a sense of risk and excitement, making the connection along with them?

MARS OPPOSING URANUS
Usually called the “accident twins” when they get together, but also an opportunity to ride this awesome energy, full of excitement, wonder, and mastery! Mars and Uranus have come to opposite ends of the table to discuss. Lets pull this together with a sense of excitement and wonder, not knowing what will happen, but ready to allow something forceful and completely new to happen! Raaaaaar!

APPLY
Be ready for something big and quick to happen. Rely on what we’ve mastered, what we already know, as we step into the ring; and at the same time be ready for something completely unexpected to happen. Rely on what we know; allow, and be prepared for, what we don’t know.
I can rely on the skills, and knowledge, and experiences that I already have—they will give me strength and confidence. I can be ready to approach it and experience it completely different this time. This will not just be a “show” of what I can do—this will be a true and new experience of it. The real deal.